you dint write about me...

A: Heyy did you read my blog

D: Oh yea i did.. What di full jollu for Prithviraj... foto and all

A: Yea what to do orey love for him

D: Read the whole thing

A: Yea ..awesome (very very happy)

D: But how come you wrote about everybody and did not write about me

A: I started blogging only recently and what i wrote is funny things that have been happening last two weeks... i dont think anything interesting has taken place between us the last two weeks

D: Oh... so do u mean to say that incident with Ranger happened two weeks back.. you told me about it many months ago

A: err.. i just wrote about things i spontaneously thought of and i did not consciously include or exclude anyone

D: I know you could write about everyone but me

A: Its not like that

D: I know you have your own life. Your own family. I dont matter anymore. As usual i have to be alone. I am getting used to it

A: Where do you get all this nonsense from?? Yea all your life you've been alone. You have had no one. What crap all this is just assumptions.

D: Yea why would u bother about me anyway

A: Yea why would i. After all ive never been there as a friend nah. Dont ever assume things about me. Its not like i consciously and deliberately did not write.

D: Whatever happens dont write about me after this

A: Not a problem. Anyways ive started writing after so long.. now who cares might as well stop that also.

D: Do whatever but dont write about me

A: Fine

D: Fine

weeks never end

Yawwwnnnn. I woke up and was unusually happy. Was walking around with a spring in my step. Sipped and relished my morning coffee like it was the last time I was going to drink it. Amma was a bit confused but decided not to ask. She probably thought that i was relieved that i finally had an entire weekend off and wasnt travelling. She didnt really ask though. Relaxed and had a nice warm bath, totally enjoying the luxury. Finally practically rolled my way to breakfast... Finally i exclaimed - Yayyyy its Thursday and one more day for the weekend. Amma looked at me like i lost my mind.... Aarthi its only Wednesday.. Aww mum come on dont burst my bubble... AARTHI it is Wednesday... AMMA

WELL AARTHI IT IS ONLY WEDNESDAY. Hmmph!

Huh...what??

Aarthi...yea tell me...I need the updated list of all the colleges for WASE.. I need the total numbers and details for the Trichy TIS event..have u spoken to priya for the list of technical panelists...I need the quote for the materials to be printed...I need you to remind me about the VP going to Salem...you need to check if his tickets are taken care of... i need you to check with certain colleges if they will be givin us day 1 slot.. you have five minutes...so finish and come to my cabin....

HUH WHAT?????

Mozhi fiasco

Pritviraj..hah yes i can see you grinning. My current craze is Pritviraj, of Kana Kandein and Parijatham fame. His charm, good looks...will cut the crap...i jus think the guy is awesome! Anyways his latest film released on friday and i was dyin to watch it. I booked tickets online for the show. Mum, abhi, mohi and myself went for the film. Collected the tickets and went to the theatre..the guy dint allow us in!! WHY?? Coz the tickets had been booked for a different date. After much hassle realised it was some problem with the server. The ppl at the theatre were extremely sweet inspite of me boiling..they offered to sell the tickets or give us tickets for another day...i decided to get it rescheduled for another day and leave for the moment...that wasnt to be either coz our car was parked along with those goin for Mozhi..so we were stuck for another three hours...the theatre guys requested us to watch Blood Diamond...No thanks have already seen it...Damn we had no other option..Well they did offer the box....fine...will just watch it and so we did...

People have been taking my trip about this simply coz i was practically jumping the whole day and all that energy jus went poooof! when the whole plan flopped. My bro and his friend are pretty much sick and tired of me talking about this guy. Before we went for the movie my bro even cursed me sayin that on screen Pritviraj's face alone would be black!!! What black... i didnt even get to see him except on the hoarding!!! Talk about curses coming true :(

argghhhh...

YES!! Thats exactly what im saying now. Why?? Coz its just like that. I had been away from listening to music for awhile. Earlier in my previous office i used to have my headphones 24/7. Well new office, new people, thought id take my time before i started listening to music. Decided today would be the D-day. The day i joined i knew i couldnt load any CDs coz the CD drive has been removed from all our systems!!! Then i tried accessing sites where i could download or listen to streaming using. My usual favorites were all blocked...and threw the warning message on my face saying "ACCESS DENIED"..even banks aint so secure. FINE!! Thought id load some music on my phone and then transfer to my system with the data cable. Well turns out you need administrative rights even for that.

Finally i tried radioblog. The site worked. PRAISE THE LORD!!! I said it too soon. The site worked but it needed the latest version of Macromedia Flash. Tried updating the existing version turns out I DID NOT HAVE SUFFICIENT PRIVILEGES!!! Anyone who even considers laughing...well if ur a man i curse that you get pregnant and if ur a woman i curse that your teeth fall off and ur head goes bald. Exactly thats how mad i am at the moment. Told my friend 'Nothings Aplenty' to send me some songs. She sent me 9. Received 3. The remaining were quarantined. Another way to remind me about my privileges and rights.

Pandora seems to be finally showing me some sympathy. Borrowed headphones from a friend. Right now, think id need more than just good music to soothe those nerves...

my breakthrough as an actor

Necessary targets.. a play by Eve Ensler...telling the story of victims of chaos in Bosnia...the story is about 5 victims who tell their story as the play progresses...they dont really want to open up but they end doing jus that..a psychiatrist comes to visit them from America and tries to make them talk about their sorrow...well little did she know the intensity of what actually happened and in the end she falls in love with Bosnia when a doctor who was among the refugees actually talks about the beauty of Bosnia, that was later ravaged and destroyed...

Well i played the character of Zlata, a refugee who was also a doctor. The play was one of the toughest ive done till date. Throughout the play, shes stoic, upright but in the end she breaks down..Stoic - me!!! How on earth..and breaking down..on stage..damn. Well the play practises used to start at around 3 and went on till 9 in the night. Saturdays usually went on from morning till late night as some of our best practise sessions were on Saturday. The play also had a bunch of monologues. Each character had her story to tell. Our director, Dr. Rajani, my second play with him, GRILLED US. What i am today as an actor, i owe completely to him. Anyways back to the play - he was busy working on this particular character Seada, who in the play was raped and her baby was taken away from her. Sir had to work on her quite a bit as she had quite a strong accent. All other monologues were done, except mine. I didnt really want to bring it up with him coz the tension of the play was really building up. Finally the weekend before the play i reminded him that he had never ever reheared my monologue. I could see his face, like lightning had struck or something. I was still very very very amateur in my acting skills and dialogue delivery. He decided that we would try and read the monologue and he would chop off as much as possible. I was ok with it coz it saved the trouble but still something in me just wanted to do the whole damn thing...coz they were beautiful lines and to deliver them would be sheer joy had i rehearsed them earlier. I read the monologue out loud. Sounded ok to my ears..just ok..not great. Then thatha ( i fondly call Rajani Sir that) told me to get a hang of the lines and just break down delivering them and if possible imagine what the lines were trying to convey. I tried...i really did..i had to imagine snowy mountains, warm kitchens, the sound of laughter, green pastures and the next instant had to imagine terrorists breaking in and chopping of my parents heads...my mind was in a whirl and before i knew it...i had broken down and was sobbing uncontrollably on stage with the lines coming out in splutters...the scene was over and i had collapsed on stage... Sir...well was astounded so were the others who were not in the scene but were just watchin..i couldnt get a hold of myself for a bit..and when i did..i knew something in me had broken loose...guess i had no more inhibitions about being on stage..i could cry, laugh, anything easily like i actually lived the moment....

None of the crew and co ordinators had watched my scene..the day before the play we were to have a dress rehearsal. One of my closest friends was heading the Costumes and make up committee ..automatically all my other close friends were in the committee helping out and were present on the dress rehearsal...the staff co ordinator for the play was the Head of my Department....my scene was done..i had broken down..the tears finally stopped..the play was over. I was sitting at the edge of the stage listening to my directors feedback. My friends came upto me and well...all they could say was Machan why the hell did you cry like that...they were standing in a corner actually shocked that i was crying...then my HOD approached...all she said was...the scene was fantastic and i was moved...I was not moved..i was FLOATING now...

that was the beginning...the beginning that will always be...i cant see an end in my passion for acting.,.. I love the stage...i enjoy being on stage....theatre is my passion, my dream, i can be someone im not at the same time i can also be myself...revealing facets of myself that i would in normal everyday life not show people... Cant wait to act again after taking a hiatus of nearly a year and half...wish my life could just start and end,...acting!

stolen moments...

Hmmm...something i suddenly thought of and thought id just pen down a few of mine... a walk with someone special and suddenly realising you were walkin hand in hand... sittin by the beach, talking about aircrafts, ships, the platform and strawberry ice cream and soon you realise that you have spent five hours talking about nothing... sitting in the open air and watchin a music concert with a slight drizzle... falling sick the next day and drinking masala chai in Java Green coz ur under threat while that someone decides to drink strawberry milkshake - pig ... staying up late working on somethin you have no clue about except that he has to, so u stick around and pretend that you know exactly what you are doing...sending an sms to someone even though he is sitting right next to u jus to say hi... a long drive on a rainy road listening to ur favorite song oblivious to everythin else... when he goes somewhere and gets u something simply coz he thought of you...and drops it in ur bag with a sweet but simple note..and u go home and find this lil thing peeking out of the corner of your bag... an sms telling you he misses you even though he jus met you a couple of mins ago..

life aint always a pain.. some moments outweigh the rest..and when life treats you bad thinkin of these good times can make a teeeny weeny difference...atleast puts a smile on ur face...unaware!

ranger danger

For those of you wondering who ranger is..well its obvious you dont know me well enough..Ranger...my goofy labrador...is about 12 years old now ..and before we adopted him he was actually named Danger. Just like every true parent, mum didn't want to sabotage her son's future with a name like that..hence we referred to him as Ranger..hoping he would respond.. Now there's no looking back..
Anyways just so you guys dont think hes some macho dog..here goes...mum usually wakes up really early..and ranger wakes up at about the same time...mum wakes up and opens my room (i was away in hyderabad) only to find the neighbours cat sleeping on my bed!!! Talk about taking ownership over ur surroundings. Anyways mum was pretty shocked to see the cat...but all the cat did was raise its head and simply acknowledged her presence...Ranger hadn't noticed the cat and was lying down next to the refrigerator..,.anyways the cat stretches...cranes her neck..and then decides that it was time for her to leave...all the while poor mum waiting and wondering when this unexpected guest would leave... the cat jumps off the bed...simply trots in front of mum..not displayin one percent of agility expected from normal cats...mum was worried that ranger might wake up seein the cat...and bark bringing the roof down..while barking under normal circumstances would be ok..this was 5 am..half the world was asleep...the cat simply continues to trot, stretch and trot again..ranger wakes up...surprise in his eyes that a cat was coming out of my room....all mum could do was dumbly stare...wat one would expect in such a situation would be chaos, noise, chase,,something like that..well whaddya think ranger did :)...welll he sprang up to his feet, ran for his life,...and hid behind mum and quietly watched the cat...his eyes filled with terror...mum had to control herself till the cat FINALLY left..and then burst out laughing...
Ranger...definitely Danger :)

new job..time lapse memory lapse

well im not gonna explain that title too much..anyways im working at Wipro Technologies now... honestly i am having a lot of fun...have a great team that i work with..still getting hang of the new job..slowly but decently well...within the first week of being here i had to fly to Ghaziabad (never heard of the place till i actually went there). Well this place is about an hour and half from Delhi. We were told to reach Delhi by 5 in the evening coz the college cabs would be waiting for us. A bunch of technical panelists and of course not-so-technical me...we were at the airport waiting for the program manager...well delhi off late has been known for all flights being delayed, both incoming and outgoing flights...smart that i am i told the technical panelists to leave...myself, another HR guy say Mr N were waiting in the airport...well waited is almost an understatement...lets say i lived there from 5 in the evening till 9 in the night...finally..oh so finally my colleague landed...with the little energy left..i dragged my luggage...was freezin outside..no college cabs..so took an airport cab..luckily we had one of the college guys accompanying us...welll not so lucky though coz he was a bit of a dud head,,. the airport cab dropped us off at a place called Anand Vihar...me was thinking it was jus a bus station..turns out it was a FREAKING DISPUTE area..damn..nice place i want myself at 11.30 in the night..turns out the college cab was on its way to pick us up from this place..and well it was coming for a very long time.. FINALLY we got picked up at 11.45 after standing on the platform for a good 45 mins...with drunken auto drivers asking if we wanted a lift...thieves running away and police chasin..(no kidding).. when we reached the hotel it was almost 1...realised i hadnt eaten dinner..luckily the hotel had some rice and dhal makhni...god bless them..at that time hot water wud have been a meal...all done i crashed with faint images of kabhi alvida na kehna...(was watching a bit of it on TV) running through my head..the next day the campus event went good..few arguments here and there..not that i personally cared as long as i shuddup and did my work...which i obviously did..finished my interviews close to 10 and selected the future prospects of my company..announced results..had dinner and went back to the hotel thru the fog,...crashed again...morning awoke early and left for the airport.. traffic jam...hating it...wish i cud just crawl into bed...wasnt quite happenin...reached the airport finally...flight delayed by 20 mins...reached home...changed and ran to office...was chatting with my colleague..and she was asking how the event..and all i cud say was it went well...and then....i cudnt remember which day of the week it was :(..well my colleague smirked and said WELCOME...hah yea rite :)