Well a lot of you might quip silently...going mad, aren't you already mad!!! Maybe I am but this is a different case.
Imagine waking up in the morning. Sipping hot coffee, enjoying the cool morning breeze. Your mother walks up to you and you think shes gonna tell you something good. Instead she goes on and on and on about some horoscope that matched and how he would call and how he had his own house and how he was tall and this and that. Ive reached a stage where I just can't take it anymore. I was in Kerala for a break. Was enjoying myself. And mum called. I was having breakfast. Thought it would be a nice how are you doing conversation. Instead it was about some arbid guy in Hyderabad, who has spoken to me long back, works somewhere, intends to build his own house, has a mind of his own, liberal, broad minded...crappppppppp... told mum to stop. Just lost it. Told her i did not want to listen to this nonsense first thing in the morning. Something snapped inside and i just felt like putting this whole thing off.
Came back from Kerala. Told mum I was going to relocate, rather that I might have to. I came back from Hyderabad coz i though people needed me here. Now im not so sure. Im not saying i do not want to get married. I will, eventually. Im 24 for crying out loud!!! I can wait atleast another 2 years. I dont think i have the mental maturity to live with a guy and raise a family. Right now my career is going great. I did get frustrated over my job but now I truly love what Im doing. I enjoy my travel, the campuses, the students views, the interview...the exhiliration of it all. Im loving it.
If marriage were to come my way, i would have to quit my job or move to a place I do not like. I cannot think of doing that. I cannot and will not quit my career for anyone or anything right now. Why did i have to study then? I could've just been brought up and gotten married and generally domesticated. Why give me an education? Why did I have to do well also? Its frustrating me now. Totally driving me crazy. I do not want any commitments now. Im happy with my life the way it is. I love being single, i love my job and i love the people around me. Im not ready to accept someone new in my life and see myself with that person for the rest of my living days.
If i get married anytime now, if im forced into it...I will poison my husband. I wouldnt have to try too hard, my cooking would suffice!!!!
